
I was sitting on my deck enjoying the sunshine when I saw a
little inchworm moving up the side of my house. It moved slowly, drawing
its body up and forward, one tiny step at a time. It did not stop or
falter, did not look around, it just kept moving slowly, ignoring
everything but the side of the house and its destination. Now my house
is tall and I am not sure what the inchworm was going to do when it got
to the roof but it kept moving. I watched it for over fifteen minutes as
it continued on its path, never stopping until it finally reached the
roof and crept out of sight.
As I watched it move along I was
reminded of my own journey and how slowly it seems to move at times, how
little progress I feel I am making and yet, in retrospect, I see how
far I have come. These last five years have been a particularly
difficult but the last ten have been a series of challenges that seemed
to never end. The roller coaster ride through losing jobs, not having
any money, being homeless, abandonment by friends and family, betrayals,
disappointments and doors slammed shut forever has not been fun. But
looking back (isn’t hindsight wonderful) I can see how everything fits
together to put me where I am at this moment-confident, in full control
of my power, with clarity and a vision for my life that is truly mine
and reflects my own energy, and is not dependent on anyone or anything.