[Translation by (Contra)Mary]
If one notices that something is changing one queries oneself : “what does this entail and become? Thereby is nothing left than to sit down and try listening into one inner self and then make all attempts to manifest it in some way.
And what is to be done in case one is not able to manifest it anyhow and find oneself not capable to describe it even too ? Well, then it will become quite difficult – my beloveds, as this is exactly what has happened to me since some previous days. Always again I try to ascertain what exactly has been the basic reason why I simply did not want to have some certain matters around me any longer – simply have not been able to feel about them as before or have not given any much considerations like before.