Inner Reflections
Suzanne Lie
The
Kundalini is getting stronger and becoming more predominant in my meditations.
It NOW takes very little effort to feel the rise of the Kundalini within the
core of my spinal column. In fact, the sensation is coming into my awareness
even when I am not meditating, but only when I am involved I some form of
mind-expanding experience.
It
is interesting to note that many of the “mind-expanding” experiences have more
to do with my state of consciousness than with whatever I am doing or not doing
within that NOW. In fact, watching a good Sci-fi show about a future reality is
enough to ignite the Kundalini.
Therefore,
I DECREE that:
I AM NOW
accepting that the sensation of the Kundalini rising is a message of, “Yes,
this experience is activating your fifth dimensional consciousness.”
However,
I cannot say that the activation of my fifth dimensional consciousness means
that my life is different. But, at the same time I must admit that my life IS
different in that I am going through a situation, which appears to be beyond my
personal choice.
I
must leave a part of my life behind that I had thought of as what I love and
held close to me. Fortunately, is a “thing” rather than a “person,” which my
Higher Self reminds me on a regular basis.
One
thing is very interesting in that, as much as I do not want to leave that which has been familiar for many years, I
am also looking forward to a new experience. I cannot say that I understand
this kind of paradoxical thinking, but I must admit that as I increasingly move
through the grief of unwanted change, there is a sense of adventure.
My
Multidimensional SELF reminds me that if I cannot quite allow my self to move
into a new 3D living area, how could I find the courage to allow my self to
move into an entirely different dimension of reality.
I
would like to say that I have a degree of mastery over my ability to choose my
daily states of consciousness, but I need to admit to my self that I am still
within the process of remembering how to master some of my emotional reactions
to life.
I
was a psychotherapist for over 30 years. Therefore, I am well aware of the
power of emotions, as well as the challenge of allowing our emotions to tell us
the truth about our self.
If
we cannot honestly identify our emotions, we can become lost within the
quagmire of perceiving reality from a higher dimension, without remembering to
ground these perceptions in our physical and planetary body.
In
fact, my physical vessel is often the first one to inform me that a message is waiting
for me to ground in the 3D via taking that dictation. I say “dictation,” as I
see my self as the “scribe” more than the “creator” of the information that I
share.
Perhaps
that view is just a ploy to keep my ego self at bay. Or, it could also be the
greater truth. Furthermore, the “greater truth is, “That which allows us to
release that which is complete, in
that which is also within this
physical incarnation. In fact, could it be that this physical incarnation is
our last physical incarnation?
Yes,
I “channel” a great deal of information about the higher dimensions, and have
been doing so for decades. However, a “channel” sent to me from a higher
dimensional being is very different than the full recognition and ownership
that that “higher being” is actually an expression of me.
“Do
I deserve to be a higher being?” my brainwashed physical mind asks. I am not as
beautiful as a movie star, as intelligent as a professor, or as famous as a
movie star. In fact, I am just a regular person who has been communicating with
unseen beings for, probably, my entire life.
I
can remember that time in which I saw the life force within everything. The
life force was within my favorite dolls, my favorite cat, that allowed me to
dress him up in clothes, or the white rat that the very old man in our
neighborhood who called out from under his porch to do tricks. As soon as the
rat came out from under his porch, all the children squealed with excitement.
As I
am entering into a new decade of my life, the seventh decade, I find myself
being very inner-reflective. Maybe I am more reflective because I am called on
to change my location, as well as many friends, family and familiar locations.
On
the other hand, maybe my Higher Self created this situation so that I would
have to take a good look back before
I “let go” into the unknown of moving
forward.
Yes,
I am determined that my movement will be forward, and, yes, I trust myself
enough to know that I will create a forward movement.
However,
we often need to walk backwards a
bit, so that we can run forward. I am
not too excited about the backwards
part of the process. But, the payoff is than, when we go “back” to clear up any
3D thoughts or emotions we may have left on dear Gaia, we just might catch a
flash of fifth dimensional Earth.
It
sometimes seems like it is just too much to actually “ascend,” but we can cross our heart and take a “running leap” into the NOW. Just the awareness of “LIVING
in the NOW” is making a huge change in our lives.
This
“change” will call on us to take a deep look at who we are NOW, as well as “HOW”
we became the person who is this version of our SELF within the NOW.
Perhaps,
my Higher Self has created this scenario for me to make it easier to “let go”
of the third/fourth dimensional reality to which I have resonated for untold incarnations.
Maybe it is for that reason that my Higher Self denied me the common situation
in which one would totally forget their past lives, once I moved into a new
life.
It
seems that, before I was born to this life, I promised to Remember my Uncountable Past Lives. I enjoyed getting “figments of
my imagination,” that is, until I finally had to admit that these “fragments”
were real. In the same manner, I had
to totally admit that all the future and parallel realities, that I am NOW, and
have always been—are ALL REAL within
my consciousness.
Because
I am writing down these reflections, I can better understand why I have had the
life I have lived. I can also better understand why I now feel inclined to
share my inner reflections.
One
of my favorite books is, “Memories, Dreams and Reflections,” which is Carl
Jung’s autobiography, which he wrote in his later years. Now that I too, am in
my “mature” years, I can deeply understand the purpose of reflecting on the
lives we have lived, and are still living.
When
we examine our time-bound past, which
instantly logs us onto the Third Dimensional Operating System, but we REFUSE
to participate in the “time-bound” forgetfulness of the Third Dimension, we can remember
the important lessons we have learned about “HOW to live within the NOW
while wearing a physical earth vessel.”
The
first lesson we will remember is that “time is relative to how we are using
it.” Once we have had uncountable lives in which we “spent time” on Earth and
feel we are ready to return to the NOW of the ONE, we begin the process of
“leaving time.”
“The
process of leaving time” is much like “the process of ascension into a timeless
NOW.” When we begin to really believe that it is possible for our reality to
transmute beyond the time-bound frequency of third dimensional time, we have
more and more fourth and fifth dimensional experiences.
In
our fourth dimensional experiences, 3D time appears to be infinitely longer.
For example, I once had what seemed to be a very long dream. During that dream
a song was playing on my radio. When I woke up from the dream, and the 3-minute
song on the radio was barely half way over.
Is
that how it feels when we ascend? Will it seem like we have lived for many
lives that lasted for many decades, then “wake up” to our ascension into the
fifth dimension NOW feeling as thought we never left?
Ascension
is not a process of death. Ascension is a process of re-birth. However, even a RE-birth is preceded by the “death” of that
which we held as important, valuable, ours and/or necessary.
To
understand this last sentence, we will go more deeply into the concepts of:
Important: Is a concept that is
temporary. What may be very important within one NOW, can have no importance
within the NOW of your reality. Therefore, “important” is a third dimensional,
time-bound concept.
As
you move more and more deeply into the NOW of the fifth dimension, you will
find that:
“Important is what you are doing within
the NOW.”
“Valuable is a term that represents every
moment of life.”
“Ours”
is the same term as “mine” for everyone is ONE.
“Necessary”
is a term that is obsolete because “if it is necessary it IS.”
I
had a waking dream this morning bout “being fifth dimensional.” Only my
physical body can remember the FEEL of being ONE with all life.
My mind has the memory of many of coming
together in Unity Consciousness to “go into the fifth dimension.”
My heart has the memory of total,
unconditional love for every living thing, and
My body has the memory collective
comfort, safety, and compassion.
I
was told at the closure of my vision to remain within the NOW of that vision,
memory, desire, or maybe all of those expression within the ONE of the NOW. I
have only been awake for a few hours, and already, I am forgetting the
experience of being fifth dimensional.
However,
a vague picture remains of many people working as ONE, and the knowing that
some component of my SELF is still THERE within that NOW.
