Every influence these days feels super-charged, as our increasing sensitivity is responding to all things in an amplified way.
The Beltane/May Day* energies of last Thursday/ Friday, along with today's Full Moon in Scorpio, feel to have created a portal of deep and ancient healing around our inner Feminine. This is simultaneously helping to balance our inner Masculine, and ultimately helps to balance the greater collective Feminine/Masculine we see played out in our world.
It has triggered sadness, grief, anger and clarity connected to:
- Times when you may have been a Priestess serving the Goddess, or been a Nun or Monk serving God and Humanity, taking vows of service that had you sacrifice worldly things like having children, being in a love relationship, having material belongings, success and financial support. These vows are honourable when made willingly in a conscious way, however they are sabotaging if they belong to a life and self long past. These vows and committments are holding us back if they are lingering around in our cells and ancestral energy, stopping us from having what we consciously want in our lives today. Enough. If this resonates with you say something like:
"I now release myself from any old vows and committments that associate what I truly want (be it love, children, success, abundance) with no longer being able to be of service, and thus failing the Goddess/God/Humanity/my self. I now see that I can do both, and in fact by embodying my soul and spirit in a life that is authentically aligned with my Heart, by living true to my Self, I can be of greater Service than I ever could be denying myself those aspects of myself that are now calling for embodiment and expression."
This works best when you put pen to paper and write your own words in your own way, from your heart.
It has triggered fear, sadness and passion connected to:
- Times when you may have been persecuted for following your heart, for practicing your innate abilities, for sharing your knowledge. Times when you may have persecuted or repressed others. If your cells associate living and expressing your truth with betrayal, loss, punishment or death, then they will stop you at every turn from living and expressing your truth. Enough. It is time to forgive those who ever stopped you, blocked you or repressed you. It is time to forgive any part of the past, this life or other, that betrayed you. It is time to forgive yourself for doing that to anyone, and forgive yourself for doing it to yourself where you have blamed yourself. Let it go.
- Times where you have been hurt, harmed and abused as a result of being female, this life or other. Scorpio brings up sexual energy, so old sexual wounds particularly may be coming up now. It is time to love yourself, wounds and all. Scorpio is about Death and Rebirth, so wounds about literal Birth may be coming up: fear of childbirth, disrespect around childbirth, powerlessness around childbirth. Enough. It is time to respect and honour Feminine Knowledge, Nature and abilities.
- Times where those females you love; mothers, partners, sisters, daughters, nieces, have been treated without respect, this life or past generations. Times where you have not valued women, or yourself as a woman. It is time to forgive others and yourself. It is time to let it go.
Imagine yourself picking up a large rock (yours may be boulder size, go with it) - you may even like to do this literally with an actual large rock. Imagine that this rock represents all that heaviness, all that repression, all that terror and fear, all that has stopped you from freely and fully expressing all of who you really are. Imagine yourself standing at the top of a cliff. Now let that rock go. Watch it drop down into the waters below. Feel the weight of it fall away from your body, heart and soul. Let it go on all levels. You do not have to carry this anymore. It is time to be light and free. It is time to express who you really are. You are needed here now.
Aho.
*Even though it was technically Beltane/May Day in the Northern Hemisphere only due to the seasonal differences, we all felt the energetic influence on a cellular level. We all have that blood in our cells whether from our ancestors or past lives. We are all connected today energetically. Whatever is felt by the some, is felt by the many.