My night wasn’t so good as I was again doubting yesterday that I go home, that I am in my transition process. It came out of a conversation I had with my twin Silverstar. I told him that it would be really difficult for me if they again would fool me in telling me I would leave now and I would have to stay longer and that it would be very hard to trust them again then. And out of this doubts were rising.
I noticed this and I decided to trust and
believe that they had told me the truth after I pushed that button and
worked on my doubts, the whole evening and night.
Today I feel much stronger that I am only
partly here now, that a part of me has gone already and I think that my
Higher Self has worked with me tonight on this. I am very tired, dizzy
and in a place somewhere else.
It is more easier now for me to be
consciously onboard ship. Most time I spend in the habitat that belongs
to my rooms. Beloved Michael has installed a sort of galactic swing
hammock and I lie there, with him, Raphael or with SaLuSa when his
duties allow this. Or I just lie on the ground.
Some days ago I was attuned by my
beautiful Pegasus Asaga, she is silvergrey with a golden horn. Yes, a
Pegasus is a Unicorn with wings and her name means ‘My Happyness’. I
know why because being with her and feeling her love makes me so happy,
she is such a wonderful lovely Being.
I took the opportunity to get attuned to
Unicorn reiki by somebody, but when it was time for this Asaga came to
me and told me she would attune me self. She touched my third eye with
her golden horn and I could feel a tingling through my third eye flowing
through my heart into my whole body and my palms. I was full of her
love and her energies. In this she is also my Unicorn guide for reiki.
She told me she would stay onboard and in my habitat until I would go
home and I should call her whenever I am there.
It is calm there and so peaceful with all
sorts of animals, birds and dragonflies and hummingbirds, and it is so
healing. This was exactly the best place for me today and I feel so
comfortable. And I know and feel that I was more there than here. I laid
down on the soft grass with my back to Asaga and Bobby came in his
Spitz form and laid into my arms. This was so good. I could feel the
heartbeat of my ship and her breathing, the Mesime is a living loving
being.
Then Michael came to me and sat down
before me. He hold me in his arms, soothing me, caressing me, embracing
me with his love. I cried, tears of old and actual pain, of feeling lost
on earth in duality, tears of longing to be physicallly on Sirius
together with my family and friends. He hold me tight and stroked my
head and my hair until I stopped crying and fell asleep in his arms.
Being onboard is so wonderful and good for
me, it is healing my body and soul too. I am more and longer there and
hopefully I will stay there soon. I feel better now and tonight I will
again be on my ship. I see myself there as I am writing this, lying near
Asaga. She gives me healing and company. During my sleeptime I am in
meetings and have other things to do, missions and I don’t know what. It
is wonderful to be on the bridge and look down to earth, to see the
beautiful lights. Gaia is shining brightly. :)
EnnKa / Isabel
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